It was all because of my last blog I'd posted on the LOTM wiki, as it was shown as a disappointment of Fanfictiondreamer. This wasn't used as bullying by any means, just as sheer upset as I was worrying that she'd have a dead account eventually since she hasn't been active in months. I feel the admin there took it far too harshly. I was trying to make it as a wake-up call of sorts, along with the rants I'd made here.
So, how long do you think I'm "temporarily banned" there? I miss editing it and I feel she'd steal my ranks. A week, a month, a whole YEAR?
I feel I should make another rant, this time w/ Saberspark; I now realize that people are successful and "perfect" because people don't have the audacity to point out their flaws!! I'd been burning bridges a lot, but at least they're for legitimate reasons. Now, it has struck Saberspark! I'm so sick that he keeps on releasing those sh&&& WTH vids week after week after week! It's like the damned Never-Ending Story, and he doesn't put any effort into his work like he used to in his Vid Essays or What Ruined/Ruining Vids; sure, they may be easy and cheap to make, but they're also full of crap that I don't watch!! If they're about something relatable (WWE Cartoons, Korean Lion King, Kimba) then it'll be a completely different can of worms! If he does MORE of those vids that make him special, THAT would also be a different can of worms! I feel I should wane from that boring, lackluster bastard who never cares for his work; if those stupid vids were done occasionally, that's fine, but he's definitely losing sight w/ his audience, including ME! Seriously, I'd watch the crap out of an angry user who'd do a What's Ruining Saberspark vid! Or if he can have the strength and effort to do What Ruined 4Kids, or maybe Toonami, or CN Part 3, ANYTHING!! SaberSH^&, you shall suffer since I'm no longer gonna be your follower, and I wish people would STOP!! drinking the damned Kool-Aid!!! And it's all about the "moichendizing!"
If you like him, that's fine. But I feel he's really let me down, as I felt he's wasted some potential w/ all those boring WTH segments instead of those thorough vid essays like he used to do... Plus, I feel the merchandise isn't helping much, and A LOT of promising YouTubers are going down the tubes; I don't care how many subs they get, it's about quality over quantity. But, unfortunately, I'm not gonna be one of his loyal followers anymore, and I hope others would see him otherwise.
I just got this feeling, and Idk if this is true, but this is what I believe; that the people who feel they're ignored actually become ignorant. Like, they'll feel left out of the equation and they don't really matter much, yet they seem to never be aware of what people has done FOR them. I feel the same for many things, like the YouTubers I know (ItionoBen, Fawful's Minion, QG, Clement, Silverreploid CLE, FFD, etc.); they don't care that I'd made Wikitubia pages to acknowledge/honor them, to show them that I care, yet they disregard it. CLE doesn't care of the F-Zero projects RR and I do! Or not giving a Favorite for all the hard work you put into, especially here! They don't care!
Perhaps this counts those people I used to idol too (the voice cast of the F-Zero English dubs, the cast of Sleepy Hollow, the casts of my other favorite works, even the bands I love such as Linkin Park, The Cars, etc.); they seem to be ignored, yet I doubt they're aware of what the fans do for them, even the retirees.
I feel isolated, too, but at least I acknowledge and appreciate what they did, but I just feel most people tend to have that kind of mentality. If people tend to feel they're ignored, they actually become ignorant. If that's the truth, then they shouldn't be bothered at all! If they don't care for what you've done, as if they WANT to be ignored, then why bother!? It's ironic, it's a shame...
I feel the same for many things, like the YouTubers I know (ItionoBen, Fawful's Minion, QG, Clement, Silverreploid CLE, FFD, etc.); they don't care that I'd made Wikitubia pages to acknowledge/honor them, to show them that I care, yet they disregard it. CLE doesn't care of the F-Zero projects RR and I do! Or not giving a Favorite for all the hard work you put into, especially here! They don't care!
Wait, you're mad because the people you made Wikitubia pages for have yet to find out about them?
Girl, just let it go. When you admire someone famous a bunch of other people do so too, and those famous people can't keep up with all of their fans. For instance, I'm a massive fan of the Swedish House Mafia, which has led me to create multiple things related to them (wiki pages, a Twitter parody account, naming myself after them in other websites) and they haven't noticed a thing about it. I'm okay with it. Not to mention only one of the YouTubers in question I made a page of barely recognizes who I am. It doesn't kill me and similar things shouldn't do it to you. Just because they ignore you doesn't mean they hate you.
Just as I had feared, my dad refused to listen to me after I listed off all the consequences on why we should never move to the Philippines. I believed in my coworkers' beliefs strongly, but that thick-headed bastard paid total disregard to all of it! He clearly stated that there is danger everywhere in the world, whether it'd be any sort of crime like thievery, sexual assault, ransom, kidnapping, etc. They said it's completely different from the US, yet he said that all places are different! They said there are bad resources, yet he said there are still towns/cities that also have them, as well as cockroaches, bedbugs, severe illness (traveler's diarrhea, cholera, and other ailments I'd listed).
He never cared how much poverty there is, as he's conceded that other towns/cities in the US also has it as bad, and he paid no disregard to the illnesses since there's people suffering from cancer here, or Alzheimer's, etc. Yet still, I find those beliefs to be true, and I refuse to leave the US since there's better medicine, water, no heat all year round since I don't live in the south, etc. But no, he said that the houses look better than the one we're staying at currently, it HAS running water, faucets, and bathrooms; even though they said people fetch their own water from lakes, rivers, etc and THEY'RE plagued with disease!
So, with his absolute indifference always saying that there are always good/bad people and places all over the world, I still never wanted to leave the country I've lived in all my life, and that I cherish so much! I never want to uproot everything I'd lived for, as one coworker said! She even said that I should let my job coach know...somehow, yet Idk how to contact her. Besides, he said that maybe we wouldn't be in the damned Philippines in February, or perhaps in another country, town, state, etc; we won't know till February. Yet, I still here their advice ringing in my ears, that Filipinos could take advantage of Americans and steal all their money since they're in poverty and take things to the extreme if they have to!!
That asinine bastard said I should do my research, even though I have to back up their claims, and he just completely disregarded ALL the advice, as he kept saying there's danger everywhere, and he thinks where we'd be staying would be safe from all that, and he'd buy an air conditioner for this humid country! I declared to him upright that if the time comes, after he said he doesn't want to hear me, I'd refuse to move and stay in the US for the rest of my life!! But, I'm afraid he'd force me to go when it comes to February, hence let the job coach know, even though Idk how to contact her and let her know what's going on! I...Idk what to do now..! I can't live the rest of these several months in agony over this!
Now, I know this won't be until Feb/March, and things hadn't been set in stone yet, but...my Dad actually wants both him and me into the Philippines to live. All because he found a woman in that Hangout or What's app, but I doubt they have anything in common, other than maybe sex appeal, as he looks for a "serious relationship," not just being honest, caring, loving, etc. I dread that I may never be able to live in the land of the free again, and there were some bad things I've heard of. Like...
The island's prone to volcanoes, and 2/21 are active.
Idk if it's gossip, but I've heard that pedophilia could actually be legal there; I hope I won't be a target considering I'm handicapped.
From the Nostalgia Critic's chastising on Sailor Moon, I've heard the age of consent in most Asian countries is 14 years of age, if not 12 at least.
Besides, I bet things we need like say air conditioning, feminine products, Wifi, washing machine/dryer, or other appliances and resources could either be expensive or non-existent. Hell, I may need to find a new job, which God knows what the hell they have, or if we're able to collect SS benefits there. I always feel that around this time, it'll be impossible to move there (I hope), and we'd be put under serious danger. I...I want you all to do me this favor, please look up whatever you can on living there, as I can't find a straight answer; do you know someone from that country?
My Dad's on his way to file his divorce documents; is it over? Is my stepmom really gonna usurp everything, while we suffer w/ no money nor benefits? What would happen to our remaining property? We live in a small hotel room, who/how will it all be transferred? Should we keep it all in some storage facility?
Guys, I just noticed that Pokeprof has changed his name to Mr. Saturn, like those worthless creatures you find in Earthbound. And then I came here to rename his page, when all of a sudden...It's gone!! I believe someone either deleted my page, which I CREATED!, behind my back, or...maybe he's a deceased YouTuber...like Cobi.
Everyone, as of now, I'm going to be moving into a hotel that has no internet for about 2-3 weeks; wish it'd be the former, though. I know I'll be missing tons of work, and I'm sure my inbox would be loaded, but...
Yeah, that's how matters will stand. I desperately hope my hiatus would end quickly and painlessly instead of stretching onward for an eternity... :(
So, until then...goodbye, everyone, and you all would be missed. Especially you EpicNinja.
Hey Ikran. The ClementJ42 page is low on information. May you add at least a few more sentences to keep the page up?
And also just a note, a list of videos or videos in a series doesn't count as information, just what is in.